Aimless life

I am sad that Mr Ronny is out of my expectation,
He is not what I want,
I realised that I was not working hard for him,
I should have do better to get Mr Ronny,
He is only once in my life time,
I am lucky I am given extra time to accomplish my mission,
but see,
What have I done?
Am I putting enough effort?
DEFINITELY NO!!
OBVIOUSLY NO!!

Why should I waste my time?
Why should I waste money?

Oh my goodness!!
I am such a bitch!!
Wake up!!
You don't have much time!!
You are wasting your time!!